Three Little Words

Three little words can mean so much. Life changing words. But are they heard and said with the same understanding and context by the sender and receiver? How far above the Heavens can your understanding let you fly? How long in time will these words sustain you and fill your heart, mind, and soul?   Three little words to wrap around you to protect against the other words hurled at you each day. Which have more protection, those said by another to you or said to yourself by you? The meaning appears so clear but clouded by interpretation.   I love you, I love you, I love you. Will these three little words carry you through the good times and the bad; In sickness and in health and in poverty and in wealth? Carry you through times your not remembered and times you carry all the load?   I love you, I love you, I love you. A warm blanket in the middle of the night that wraps around your soul. Gives strength to make the load lighter and showers you in wealth with no money in the bank. A cool cloth to a fevered brow and the healing touch of a hand.     I love you, I love you, forever. How long does forever last? Alpha and Omega? Or til the morning light?   What is this thing called love?

The Light of God connects us all, like tiny strands of pearls.

Branching from His one great Light, and covering the earth.

And like a necklace made of pearls, we each are made more

beautiful by the other.

Connecting us directing us through the core star of our soul;

So that we may light the world with his Love and Forgiveness.

Let us awake and spread His Light throughout this earthly plane.

His Light forever shining bright from one soul to the next.

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It has been four years now since the diagnosis and the decline has been gradual until this year.  Now, each day is a decline further into the fog of mental escape to protect himself from the fear of death.  As much as he wants to die, his fear of death prevents him from transcending peacefully.  As much as he wants to live, his fear of life as he is declining keeps him in a place of confusion to keep him from the reality of his death.   He has decided to give up and is working hard on leaving this earthly plane.  Each day he is becoming weaker and then suddenly he forgets that he wants to die and gets up and walks without his walker.   He, then, will get stuck and freeze with fear of falling.  He will freeze in position and not be able to move for fifteen or twenty minutes.  It takes coaxing, counting, touching his leg and allowing him to stand by himself and starting all over again until he can move or I get him in the wheelchair.

He has forgotten my name at times and wonders what I am doing wearing his wife’s clothes.  He frequently forgets where we live and wakes up thinking we live in a duplicate house in another town.  We have a picture of a bird on our bedroom wall and when he wakes up confused I point to the bird and he can remember our address and that he is at home.  Night time is the worst.  He can’t remember that it is nighttime and he thinks it is day time and time to get up. Some nights I’m ask every ten minutes what time it is and if it is day time or night time.   

Each day is a challenge.  Confusion reigns the day in the afternoons.  He thinks we are being watched via a two-way mirror in the TV at times.  He cannot tell the difference between a TV program and a commercial most of the time.     Clint Eastwood westerns and Quigley Down Under do not confuse him and he can understand the story line.  So we usually watch them over and over again everyday. 

Each month usually brings an episode of pneumonia preceeded by congestive heart failure.  He gets weaker with each episode. I pray that he dies before he goes into full blown Alzhiemers.  He not only has Alzhiemer’s, Parkinsons, Congestive Heart Failure, Prostate cancer, an abdominal aortic aneurysm, arthritis, GERD, and an inoperable torn rotator cuff so that he has very limited movement of his right arm.  He is in pain all day every day.  His quality of life is his fantasy land in his head and it is filled with fear and confusion.  I pray he will transition to a higher plane while he still knows who I am and that he loves me. 

I will keep him home with the help of Hospice aides, nurses, volunteers and the VA provided caregiver assistant.  He would not last a month in a nursing home.  It is time for the Universe to take it’s course and I will keep him safe at home until he decides to cross over.  We are and have been forever connected by our love.

We each are on a journey through this life.  A journey to learn life lessons to make us more whole as a Spirit Soul an life lessons to follow in the footsteps of Jesus to learn unconditional love and forgiveness so that we can become one with God (one with the Universe).  Unconditional love and forgiveness are the most important lessons to learn for all persons we meet an in all situations, for these lessons leaned move us forward on the time, space continuum and our combining with the All for eternity.

Today is a very special time in you journey.  Your vibration level is evolving higher as your soul reaches for the Heavens.  What a wonderful gift to know that soon life’s journey will be complete and one’s Soul will be released from this frail body we have called home while traveling on this earthly plane.  We will be leaving behind sickness, pain, worry doubt, suffering and most of all fear.

 Rejoice, Rejoice, and Celebrate, life’s journey

is complete.

Life lessons learned, we lie in peace,

our souls rejoicing.

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As you progress to a more balanced state for your soul on your journey to heaven, you will progress though several stages of soul healing.  According to the prominent researcher on death, Dr. Keubler-Ross states that these stages are denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.  The person who is dying will pass through these stages and will fluctuate back and forth between them as will family members and anyone close to the one who is dying as fear and doubt take over.

Denial is the first stage and is a temporary defense that gives you time to prepare yourself for what is to come. The next stage is anger.  You are angry at the loss of your identity, your freedom, you body, mind and your spirit.  Whether the dying process is a gradual onset or a sudden onset, the process is the same. At first you can’t believe this is happening and then anger sets in as you become weaker, unable to do what you want to do when you want to do it because your body or mind will not cooperate.  Your spirit is willing at first but gets no support from your body or mind. You feel like you are spinning your wheels.  Your whole life is disorganized and no matter how how you try you cannot get back to where you were before you became ill.  You may have had to face body parts being removed and this has caused your fear to increase.  There is no corner of your life that has not been affected.  Your life has been interrupted and there is no end in sight.

How do you find the hope of you, when all knowledge

of self is gone?

Who is this person that inhabits my body?

It has no energy to care for self or family.

It has no ability to organize the day.

There are no plans that can be made because you

cannot follow through.

Who is this person within me, ravaged by extreme pain?

The medications hiding self behind a wall of haze.

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The third stage is bargaining with God whether you believe in God or Not.  You will beg for your life and in return you will lead a better life.  You will vow to love more, give more or whatever you can sacrifice if only God will immediately heal you and take this affliction away.  As you cry out to God in the dark of night and realize that immediate healing is not to be, the forth stage depression will set in.  Depression over loss and depression over guilt of not having enough faith to be healed immediately and depression over no being worthy enough to be healed and depression over your perceived abandonment of God and depression over the harsh invasion of your body by disease, surgery, medications.  It is at this point that you become entangled in a vicious cycle of anger because of the depression and bargaining unanswered, depression, anger, and so it will go.

The storm cloud gathers and lies heavy on my soul,

Blocking all my cries of help to the Heavens above.

There is no light from Heaven to led me on my way.

Why do I have to stay in this hell of earth?

For no one cares or wants to care.

It really doesn’t matter anymore.

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You feel like you are in a helpless descent and you are helpless to stop the descent.  You would love to climb out of the pit but just stopping the fall would be enough.  You are not only depressed; you are spiritually depressed(Women’s Study Bible,1984).  You feel robbed of yourself identity, mind, body, and spirit.  You can never get grounded or centered.

You have no roots, no passion, no emotions, and no reason for being anywhere.  You are no longer connected to spirit.

Fear looms over you keeping you frozen in time.  In order to overcome the fear and the depression and the anger and the cycle generated by the fear, you need to learn how to not let fear find you.   Fear will steal your joy and give you the key to Hell on earth.  Fear creates a biochemical reaction that causes an electrocircuitry imbalance that causes chronic negative reacting and cell memory associated with fear.  If fear can produce a negative reaction, then love can produce a positive reaction and reverse the effects of fear.  Everything we choose is either love or fear based.  Love and fear cannot exist within the same reaction.  We choose how we react.  We need to learn that neither choice is good or bad, it just is.  We are not here to judge others or ourselves.

There is a light that’s faraway just beyond my reach.

As I awake to each new day, rain, snow, or sun;

It is my choice to release my light within and as my

Light shines so does the Light of God.

And these Lights meet and strength is gained for me

To be stronger and brighter than I could ever hope to be.

His wish is happiness for every choice made and we choose

how to act.

So If our choice is to hide our light because our day looks bleak,

There is no light to find God’s light and our strength withers

from within.

The path of life is a shared event and successful only by how

we choose to shine.

It is our choice and God waits, which effort do you make?

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When we choose love, we are open to our environment and we communicate with self and others and a balance of all situations occurs.

Your body, mind and spirit are in a harmonious balanced state.  Energy is not lost or gained.  We are opened to a steady flow of energy in our body, mind and spirit. The lesson we are each here to learn this lifetime is love and forgiveness for ourselves and all humanity.  We do this by learning that we are all connected to the Light (God) bringing love and energy into ourselves and radiating to all.  Being one with the Light is the only way healing can begin and energy can flow and acceptance can begin.  Acceptance is a time for preparing for change, getting to know you better and meet yourself in a new light.  You feel your true needs and seek nurturance in ways you have not before(Brennan,1993).

The hope of you is in the present and being in each moment.

The core of self to radiate healing from within out.

A new you to BE; bringing the best this life can offer.

Moving forward with each step and knowing we can create our future.

Thanking the Universe each day with graditude and love in past

tense for Healing that has occurred.

This is the hope we all poccess if we choose to use.

Knowing it is our thoughts welling up from our truest self

that heals and gives us the best of life.

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Learning just to BE and enjoying each moment and staying in a moment of Love with everyone you meet and interact with all bring you the most joy in life and peace to your spirit.  This joy and peace will bring acceptance of whichever healing path is chosen .  Healing may not always mean that the body is going to be healed.  Healing may mean healing for the spirit soul and release of the soul from a frail body that no longer supports a meaningful life.  Life lessons have been learned and your time to transition to a higher plane may be now.  Acceptance brings your connection to God and the radiation of his Light through you to all around and many blessings bestowed.

The Passage to Heaven

As you walk through the mist of fog

That lies just below the mountain peak–follow

your heart and you will be guided through to the next

clearing and the next healing.

The road ahead is clear as the sunshine reflects off the

mountain peak–engulfing you in love and warmth,

and Light.

It is a continual pattern that urges you on with its familiarity.

The knowing ever present that you will soon merge with your

true self, soul and divinity that grows within you.

You will then add with the All to bring the love, warmth, and light

to those who follow–know those who follow will be cradled in

the warmth of God’s arms.

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